HE TURNED HER CANTS INTO CANS AND HER DREAMS INTO PLANS.
^what a sweet quote this is, huh? My God RULES. He has awesome plans for me, & theyre bigger than ill ever be able to dream or comprehend. Ephesians 3:20 "Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us."
A year ago, i never DREAMED id have an opportunity like presented to me now. My best friend Katelyn and i, this past summer in discussing our after graduation plans, talked about how WICKED AWESOME it would be to do the World Race Missions Trip. as God has broken down more and more barriers in my life this year, ive had in my mind, a single thought planted….. WHY NOT?
so i looked into it. not old enough. accepted to North Carolina State, a HARD to get into school for PA kids. what was God trying to tell me?! Where the heck am i supposed to go!?
Upon further prayer and research into the World Race's organization, Adventures in Missions, i discovered they had a 9 month missions program for people 18-22 years old, called "The Passport: Immersion." The trip consists of 3 months in Central America, 3 months in Africa and 3 months in Asia; spreading the gospel, working with the impoverished and helping girls in sex trafficking. Africa and Asia are where God has set my dreams; theyve been placed on my heart as to where id like to spend my life on missions.
Did yall know that? i want to be a missionary. I want to witness to and help the impoverished, uneducated, the hurting, the sex slaves and child soldiers. "Give a man a fish, you feed him for a day; TEACH a man to fish, feed him for a LIFETIME." I believe in the power of education, and investing time into people. Upon talking about this, im reminded of a certain quote, and a favorite old testament story. "IF YOUR DREAMS DONT SCARE YOU, THEYRE NOT BIG ENOUGH." HECK. im scared out of my brain – i dont want to leave behind my church as its recollecting/rebuilding itself, the kids in my youth group, my babies from Cinderella, my friends at Camp, my family. I dont want to miss out. At the same time, God is going to send me exactly where He wants/needs me, and the dreams He has for me are, again, much grander than MY petty dreams (As the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts" ~ Isaiah 55:9).
Moving forward- the story. Its about a lad named Gideon (someday, i WILL have a son named Gideon, by the way). Gideon was a nobody. A weakling. The least of the least. A coward. Not quite unlike myself. THE Angel of the Lord came to him and said "the Lord is with you, O VALIANT WARRIOR." and Gideon was like "this is AWK, im currently HIDING in a cave so the Midianites dont take my food." and the Angel was like "well, sorry to break it to you, but you gotta go cut down the Alter of baal (the one the ENTIRE village worships) and go into battle so…. but God's got this. Dont worry." and Gideon was like "cool story, bro." and the Angel was like "this is real life, dude." so Gideon, even though he was scared out of his skin and he was risking death, and everybody he loves (family, dad, village) hating him, followed what God wanted and cut down the alter of baal. unforeseen, this was EXACTLY what gained him the respect to have 300 men follow him into battle against a 135,000 men Midianite army. Gideon was SO SCARED. but he NEVER let his fear or self doubt get in the way of God's plans for him.
i pray that for myself. that GOD be my dream.
isaiah 6:8 is one of the coolest verses EVER: HERE I AM, SEND ME. right now, thats my crying out. HERE I AM GOD; LITTLE, CRAZY, SCARED, INSIGNIFICANT CAITLINN RENEE CURRY. IM 18 AND A HALF, FIVE FOOT ONE AND A HALF, 116 POUNDS, FROM MENNONITEVILLE PA, A SMALL TOWN WITH CORNFIELDS AND CHURCHES. I WORK AT MEN-O-LAN, I HATE MATH, I WEAR LOTS OF JEWELRY, IVE PLAYED PIANO SINCE I WAS FIVE AND I LIKE TO SING A LOT. ITS NOT MUCH, BUT PLEASE TAKE AND USE MY LIFE. ITS ALL I HAVE. IF IT BE YOUR WILL…. SEND ME.
I ask for you all to pray for me as well; we OFTEN times overlook the power of prayer.
This is going to be really hard. REALLY hard. but i CANT WAIT to see all that God has in store and where He takes me. (Jeremiah 29:11) It's gotta start somewhere, so why not here, now, and with me? Ghandi said "be the change you wish to see in the world." well, my friends, this is me taking my first step to changing the world.
alright, God, lets open my next chapter 🙂
HE must become greater, and I must become less ~John 3:30
